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wadu...w, saiah telat nui..., udah hampir 2minggu ni ga ngeBLOG!! ga kraza udah ramadhan keberapa iah...!, saiah malez ngitung, hehehe... ternyata..., banyak godaan juga. setan'y nambah banyak kali yah..., pd kabur dari penjara, hahaha... kegiatan ramadhan biasa ajah tu...h, biasa tidur en telat mksud'y, hahaha... ga tau kenapa, gue susah banget tuh buat meninggalkan kebiasaan gue yg ga bakal gue turunin ke anak moyang gue, ogah deh... okeh..., gue jangan crita ramadhan sekarang ah, lagi ga mud bgtz ne..., tapi yg pasti siy, ramadhan th ni beda bgt ama yg kmren2. BT......!!!!!, iman gue sempet ng'down, malez tarawih, tadarus (kalo makan siy, "aman2" aje...hwahahaha... alasan kenapa'y, gue ga tau ni..., lagi dalam dilema, ceilah..., dalam pencarian gitcyu... ga di rumah, diskul, ato dimana aja. di rumah..., tararaaaaaaaaaaaa......., ga ada kegiatan selaen watching TV ama sibuk ngurusin "file2" yg msuk ke meja dapur gue n ema' gue, a.k.a MASAK!!! bujubune...ng, MONYET!!!, kayak'y gue bakal dapet keahlian baru ni, apa hayo.....??? "ngotorin n memporak porandakan dapur ema' tercintah gue". ema' gue tuh kadang nesu (marah buw...kalo ga tau, dudul) kalo masak bareng gue. bukan karna liat tampang gue yg terlalu manis buat di abaikan n terlalu cantik buat di sia2kan, hwa hwa hwa (lama ga narsiz, dikit ye....), tapi karna gue susah di ksih tau. sebener'y, menu buat buka puasa siy biasa adjah, cuma karna ema' gue crewet n ribet, so..., gue yg jadi tumbal deh. gp2 siy, toh ema' gue sendiri yg pua......li........ng gue cinte......., i lup u puul ma'... well, enough dulu ye...udah siang, gue ngantuk, hoaammmmm.......... maklum lagi puase, bawaan'y ngantuk mulu.. hehehe...., shining off... duada.....h....... inget ye...tetep SMANGADH!!! ;)

yap! hidup itu butuh perjuangan. Ga ada yg ga mungkin di dunia ini, u know...! Kalo kita mo usaha, knp ga mungkin?! Kesempaytan slalu ada buat orang1 yg mo ikhtiar, n ridha Allah kan slalu menyertai. kadang kita lupa sama kodrat kita sbg manusia, insan di bumi. untuk apa kita di ciptakan dan untuk apa kita kita mati. Selalu di makan ama harta n nafsu dunia, masya allah..., yernyata udah membutakan mata batin kita buat nginget, mau jadi apa kita di akhirat kelak...??

ehm..ehm... ini kelanjutan dari part 1 kmren. pitoelasan di tempat gue. Setelah berbagai penyiksaan n kegilaan yg gue alamin, terere....ttt!!!!, ternyata itu belom usai. Selasa kmren, gue berangkat tuh dari humz tercintrong gue jam 06.15n gt deh. Huft, gue udah ada feeling bakal telat lg. Emang dasar!!, PRT(Pelajar Rajin Telat, hahaha). Gue pusing liad lalu lalang kendaraan. Cpe, panas, ah udah ga ngebetahin bgt. Giliran gue dapet bis, cb tebak, gue naek dmn?. di pinggir pintu masuk n pas itu tuh laju bis lagi cpet. Sialan!, kaki gue di injek sama cwo(tetengga gue yg brkt breng gue) yg ga kira2 buat nginjek, tepat'y di jempol kanan kaki gue. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! Sakit'y minta tulung tuh.. 10mnt gue bertahan dgn keadaan yg ky gt. Ga enak bgd. Untung ga nyampe skul, bisa2 bengkak nih jempol gue, hugh! well... dskul ga ada kegiatan apa2 kmren, cn upcra 17n dwnk. Ga asik!. Sama aja d kompleks humz gue. Sepi. Mlipi. amleng. Meneng. Ora ana apa2. Hugh! Dskul malah yg ada sibuk lthan buad karnavalan. Yg ga ikut, mlah pljrn bysa. Monyet emang, di drill trus ni otak'y. Cpe deh... Ga tau jg siy knp ga ada kegiatan buad ngrayain HUT INA 64 itu... Yap, tp smgdh generasi muda gue ga luntur kq, toh semua'y kembali k niat gue sendiri..(cie...tumben ni bener, hehehe) Tetep semangat INDONESIA gue tercinta.................., i luv u pull.....hahahahahahaha...... :)

64 taun ni, negara tercinta gue, Indonesia ber-ulang taun. Semangat gue lg meledak2'y ni, haha. MERDEKA!!! SEMANGAT '45! Ga ada yg istimewz si sbnr'y, tp buad negara gue tercintrong, gue semangat2in aje deh. Well..., byk yg pgen gue critain ni. Mo mule dr mn ya?, sini aja deh. Detik2 menjelang hari kemerdekaan, ternyata gue di jajah dulu ni ky para phlwn yg udah gugur ngedahuluin gue. Hari jumat kemaren, ada kegiatan PMR diskul gue. DONOR DARAH. Yap, wktu itu, jiwa kemanusiaan gue lg bangkit, so...gue mutusin buat ikutan. Baru sekali ini dlm hdup gue dnor darah. Rasa'y? biasa aja, ga tkut, liat jarum'y, batin gue "hmmm...busye...t dah!", pas msuk k nadi gue, "aaaawwww........!!!!!!", sakit jg, tp bntar dwnk, trus ga skit. 10mnt tgn knan gue diem, lemah tak berdaya, tergeletak, lunglai, lemez, g da tnga, wadu...h. Tp enak jg trnyta, gue jd pgen dnor drh lg ni. 14 Nov bsok, gue dpt konfirmasi buat dnor lg(eh,jgn slh,bkin sehat lhuw...badan gue jd lbih enteng pasca drh gue di ambil 250cc.good bye my blood, i'll b missing u so much for 17th stay with me here..). uia, kirain bkal d ksih kue ke', susu ke', apa ke', tp mlah snack ky anak SD aja, hahaha. Tp gp2 siy, itu ga pnting kq, yg pntg darah gue bisa bermanfaat buat orang2 yg ngebutuhin darah(upzt, type darah gue "B", yg bukan itu, sry...ga bisa bntu, hehehe). Udah gt, sbtu'y, dskul ada acra UPACARA PRAMUKA, pdhl, hari'y tuh jumat kmren, tp up'y sbtu, aneh emang. slruh warga SMA1 BANJARNEGARA yg pinter2, jenius2(ky gue ini...), multi talent, exelent, dinamis, beredukasi, dedikasi, dan loyalitas yg tinggi,(hahaha, teruz aje...) di wajibkan bawa hasduk m topi pramuka, berhubung gue ga punya, well...gue pnjem ttnga gue. Tp mlah pgi2'y mo gue ambil, anak'y uda brkt skul. Huft... udah deh, gue ga bawa, toh kalo di hukum, gue jg ga peduli amat, dilaksanain aje, hohoho. Dskul tuh udah rame pd keribetan make tuh hasduk, scra udah lama ga pd make yg ky gt, jd lupa. Teng jm 7 pgi, smw'y stand by d lapangan buat mulein upcra. Siap2 nahan panaz, laper, aus, yg psti nahan buat kebelet k toilet gr2 udah 1minggu ga "pup", hahaha(smw'y fiktif belaka). Trnyta, byk jg yg ga pke hasduk m topi, trmsuk gue, hahaha...saking rajin'y tau, rajin males'y mksud gue, hahaha. Dsni ada fakta yg bkin gue tercengang, terkejut, ketawa smpe bkin perut gue mules, jg laper cz pgi'y ga sarapan siy. Tau ga, 2 tmn cwo 1clz gue tuh ngiket hasduk mrka pake apa coba...? GELANG 2000perak warna KUNING. Hahahahahahahahaaa........... Aneh, lucu, bkin ilfil jg, hahaha. Pinteran jg tmn2 gue, ga ada iket resmi, gelang pun jadi, hahaha. Acungin bibir kakan serong deh, hahaha. muka bhgia n senyum mengembang mrka jg trnyta tete...p aje stay setia. Lutju...Lutju... Well...itu penyiksaan yg gue alamin sblm pitoelasan. Huft...

come back lg ni..., ke bilik pertama gue bkin blogni, yeah..14 "secret", hehehe. Udah 2hr gue ga ngeBLOG tau, ugh...rasa'y...ga nahan. N 2hr jg gue berhasil menggagalkan misi penghancuran gue, apa lg klo bukan TELAT. Hahaha...bangga jg gue ga telat, tp skali ga telag, gue nympe d kelas pertama sndri n atu2'y orang yg ada di lante 3, huft... Tp gp2 siy, se'enggak'y gue ga telat lg, hehehe thnx God! Yau ga, nympe d kelas jm brp? Jm kelas menunjukan pukul 06.35, hahaha gile bener...pagi bgt tuh, pdhl gue dr rumah kgak subuh2 amat kq, sialan!. Ada banyak hal yg menarik dalam kehidupan gue slma 48 jam. Rabu kmren, gue ada pljrn jerman yg ckup bkin ilat gue n tmend2 gue pd cadel, kesleo, pegel2, n bibir yg indah ini monyong, menceng2 ksna ksni, knan kiri, atas bawah, depan jg, tp ga belakang, itu malah aneh jdi'y.(baca: bkin ketawa setengah laper, hahaha). Yah itu, melajarin tentang MODAL VERBEN, bukan MODAL PERBAN lhuw y...emange buat merbanin mulut n bibir yg udah ga rupa itu, hohoho. Gile, lucu bgt, ktwa lg dunk, hahaha(yg cuma nyengir dwnk, itu ga berez...). Tp lg asik2'y nikmatin tuh kata2 n pelafalan jerman'y, mlah sm si BuGuRu (bukan Bubur Gulali Rujak) nyuruh kite2 pd nyiapin kertas bwd ulangan!. Oh My Allah, kyk'y semboyan yg 1 ni bkal gue balik, "di atas kegembiraan, ada penderitaan...". Wadu...h, udah deh gue pasrah aje, emang gue td mlm ga sempet kepikiran mo da ulgn da2kan ky gtu, indra kesiswaan gue lg kena "virus" siy, hehehe. Secuil tp byk jg yg gue inget, gue kerjain tuh soal 10 dlm wkt 15mnt dwnk, mana arti'y gue kgak paham lg, hmmm. Finish, gue slse, tmend2 gue jg slse ngrjain, akhir'y slse n penderitaan kite2 berakhir, tgl nrima hasil, mo remidi pa ga, hohoho. Terakhir gue ada pljrn TIK. Yap..., PHOTOSHOP. Itu pljrn yg di tunggu2 sm onk2 SMA yg notabene'y siy suka memanipulasi hasil jepretan2 mrka, bys la...h, usil n nyari sensasi n petualangan n kegokilan n kepuasan n dll. Pd akhir'y, hasil dri jepretan Ohm.Ed(itu nama beken guru TIK gue, hmmm), slh satu tmen gue berhasil dimanipulasi photo'y, hahaha...lutju...lutju... Huft..., msh byk yg pgen gue tulis dsni, tp berhubung gue cm bawa diut 5000,- perak(bukan emas tau, jd ga usah diplototin gt deh baca'y, kcwli klo loe emang pandangan'y rada ga jelaz alis bolor ky gue, hahaha...), so...gue mosting kapan2 lg deh. Okeh... See u on the next story...(dora bgd gt loch..., yg suka nonton aja tiap hr minggu jm 8 pgi, hanya di...GLOBAL TV, hahaha...). smANGADH...!!! ;)

Every stay i take..every move i make..every single day..every time i pray..i'll be missing you.. Thinking over day, when you went away.. What a live to take, what a game to play, i'll be missing you.. Someone as beautiful as you, could do much better, it's true. That didn't matter to you. I tried so hard to be the one. It something i couldn't do. Guess i was under the gun. Maybe it's better off this way. "where'd you go? i miss you so.. seems like it's been forever that you've been gone..please come back here.." So close so far. I swear... It's like a nightmare before christmas. I wish that i was looking into your eyes. What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night? Cause when i'm wiyh someone, i'm thinking of you. And honestky my life would suck without you. You got a piece of me. Either i found out, i'm nothing without you. Maybe i wrong to trying to pick a fight. Maybe i was stupud for telling you goodbye. Are we the same? How does it feel to be different from me? Guess it was too hing to climb. Why did i leave you behind? The last goodbye burns in my mind. If there was a sign, ready to follow a sign. I'm lost in time. ADA KEKUATAN DALAM CINTA. ORANG YANG SANGGUP MEMBERIKAN CINTA ADALAH ORANG YANG KUAT KARENA IA BISA MENGALAHKAN KEINGINANNYA UNTUK MEMENTINGKAN DIRINYA SENDIRI.

hari ini hari k 5 gue ngeBLOG, n k 4 kali'y gue mosting. Ada banyak banget yg pengen gue ceritain ni. Sehari ga ngeBLOG, ternyata banyak juga unek2 yg ga tersalurkan n kebendung di memori otak gue yg jenius ini, hahaha. Kemaren tuh banyak bgt kejadian yg bikin gue geleng2 kepala tau. Gue kemaren TELAT, hmm mule lagi "pnykit" gue, pdhal bgun uda subuh2, eee...msi...h aje telat, emang bakat kali yah... Mana nunggu bis lama nian. Udah gue stop, to mlah ga berenti, dazar tuh bis, ga mo di naekin m cwe jenius ky gue, ga doyan duit. akhirnya dgn kesabaran n kegelisahan hati gue, 1/2jm gue mutusin buat naek mikro(yg ga tau mikro, itu 1 tingkatan dibawah bis), nunggu, akhirnya dapet juga. N gue dapet t4 di pinggi...rrrr pintu. Brrrr....kyk'y sampe skul, gue bakal kena masuk angin n muntah2 ni, hmmm. 7-10mnt lmyn buat gue buat berdiri di pinggir pintu mikro express itu. Akhirnya, gue bisa berdiri nyaman walo ga du2k, tp se'enggaknya ga di pinggir pintu, ngeri... Bernafas lega gue, haaaaaah!!!. Ada pemandangan yg menarik mata gue, wktu mikro'y lg jalan tuh, trnyta mikro yg gue stop bareng tmen2 gue n ga mo berenti, itu mogok di pinggir jalan, hahaha. Rasain tuh, slh sndri ga mo nganter gue smpe skul siy...hahaha, kasian yg naek tuh mikro. Smpe skul, keadaan kelas ud acak adut, ribut, ga jelas gt deh... Gila, hr slasa kmren penuh sm yg namanya PR. Sehari tuh mapelnya MATIK, FISIKA, KIMIA, BINDO, ENGLISH, yg g ada PR tuh cm BINDO dwnk. Busyeeet dah, udah kesiangan, telat, lari2 k lante 3, PR lom kelar smua lg, ugh!. Gue jd kangen hari itu. Brasa sibuk, hahaha. Tp asik jg siy..terobati dgn kacamata baru gue yg udah dateng. akhirnya...mata gue yg bolor ini terselamatkan. I love my kacha-matha. Slasa yg bikin gue cape seumur2. ada yg bkin gue tmbah cpe, diskul gue lg kena wabah "libur" a.k.a siswa2'y lmyn yg ga brkt skul. 5-6 anak gt...13 jg pernah, mcm2 lg, ada yg skit tenggorokan, batuk, flu tanpa babi, pusing tnp 7 keli2ng, keclkan lah, pt yg pasti g ada yg ulis disurat tuh "tidak berangkat karena sakit hati abis diputus pacar.oleh karna itu, dimohonkan ijin tdk mengikuti pljrn smpe skit hati'y sembuh", hahaha. Hari itu bner2 deh hari pnuh kenangan, wlo menyiksa jiwa dan raga(baca: lg2 lebay). Oke... ckup deh, gue orang'y rada pelupa jd gue ga inget lg apa aja yg udah terjadi kmren, hehehe... smANGADH!!! '65 ;)

kadang yg nama'y cinta itu ga seindah yg qt pengen.ngorbanin apa aja demi cinta kayaknya emang udah kaya kewajiban n kebutuhan buat mereka. Huft...hidup itu penuh pengorbanan ya.. Akhir2 ini gue lagi ga mud banget ngapa2in.belajar, sekolah, makan ,minum, tp kalo mandi si tete...p mud lah, gile aje loe, hehehe. Gue kaya kehilangan spirit gue buat hidup dimana semua yg gue punya kaya ga ada artinya. Gue bingung sm diri gue sendiri.sebenernya apa si mau gue, apa tujuan hidup gue, apa yg bakalan gue realisasikan buet keluarga gue, n orang2 yg ngdukung gue. Itu gara2 1 peristiwa yg bikin gue "aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!". Gue kena depresi berat ni. Dan sekarang adalah puncak dari penyakit baru gue itu. Gue hilang akal, kendali, n semunya...

hmmm... ini hari ketiga gue mosting blog.dari tadi malem, tangan gue udah semutan pengen nulis n nuangin semua unek2 yg ada di otak jenius ini, hahaha. Huft..., hari ini gue cap jadi hari keberuntungan gue, cz ga biasanya ni...gue ga nglakuin hal terindah dalam sejarah persekolahan gue, GUE GAK TELAT.ini keajaiban.Tuhan sayang sama gue, dikasih kesempatan buat ga telat berangkat skul, biasanya gue nglakuin hal itu hampir tiap hari n itu bikin gue ga "ngeh" bgt liat muka2 abang sopir n kernet'y yg...ssst "amburadul", hahaha(yg ngrasa mukanye amburadul, sry ye...bukan salah bundo melahirkan...). Tiap berangkat skul, naek'y mikro itu...mulu(yg ga tau mikro, bego loe!, 1 tingkatan dibawah bis bro...). Yah...setelah berhasil melakukan "misi" gue dgn lancar tanpa hambatan secuil pun, gue asik berlenggang ke kelas di lante 3 tg isi'y para cecunguk2ga karuan itu, termasuk dikelas gue sendiri.ENTRI CECUNGUK2: 1. Abdul (abdul "beo", ngoceh mulu si) 2. Eri (baca: kiwul) Itu 2 anak yg paling gue ga "betah di kelas. Ribut, crewet, brisik, usil, ada...aja yg mereka lakuin, terutama SMSn di hampir tiap mata pelajaran. Hmm... Kembali ke persoalan. Gue nyampe skul jam 06.50, yah 10menit lagi gue bakal mensukseskan misi terindah gue. Kata'y "tyda masa pling indah, masa2 di sekolah, tyda kisah paling indah, kisah kasih di sekolahl.." kalo gue?? "tyda kisah paling indah, kisah TELAT ke sekolah...", huft... Ga ada yg menarik buat hari ini, tp ada si... Tadi jam pelajaran terakhir, tepatnya jam 01.15pm, gue n kelompok gue presentasi di depan kelas, n loe tau ga, itu kelompok isi'y orang2 jenius semua, termasuk gue, hahaha(baca: jenius bengong). sucess jg, tp bel pulang bunyi, akhirnya ditunda sampe pertemuan besok. Gue hampir 1jam disini, perut gue udah demo ni...bawa'y pedang yg panjang'y ky yg dipunya m kaisar Chin dulu, jd perut gue perih ni, ugh...! Panas jg hari ini, DEHIDRASI...!!! Hope tommorow will be better, okay... amin. smANGADH...!!! smANGADH...!!! ;)

sekarang hati gue sedih, gue pengen ngluapin semunya disini!! David "crush" I hung up the phone tonight Something happened for the first time deep inside It was a rush, what a rush 'Cause the possibility That you would ever feel the same way about me It's just too much, just too much Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Has it ever crossed your mind When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends? Is there more, is there more? See it's a chance we've gotta take 'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last Last forever, forever Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy "imagine" Imagine there’s no heaven It’s say easy if you try No hell below us Above us only sky Imagine all the people Living for to day ah ah… Imagine there’s no countries It isn’t hard to do Nothing to kill or die For and no religion too Imagine all the people Living life in peace… You may say I’m a dreamer But I’m not the only one I hope some day you’ll join us And the world will be as one Imagine no possessions I wonder if you can No need for greed or hunger A brother hood of man Imagine all the people Sharing all the world… You may say I’m a dreamer But I’m not the only one I hope some day you’ll join us hikz hikz :'(

hay..., my blog, i come bakc ni...kemaren gue baru aje ninggalin loe, skrg gue blik lgi ni.gue skrg ada di warnet dket rumah gue, 5mnit sampe, tp tdi gue pke kcptn 90km/hour.hahaha, itu slah 1 cara buat gue tenang kalo gue lgi emosi, n gue ga tkut jatoh cz udah bysa jatoh si, hahaha. pgi tdi gue bru aje kena "sentakan" yg bner2 bkin gue rada gmn...gt.ini mslh orang yg udah gue anggap ky kakak gue sndri.bareng sm lgu'y LP "new divided", gue mo membeberkan kjdian yg baru aje gue alamin.itu bs bkin adrenalin gue terpacu jauh lbih kuat!!! hri ini bakalan gue resmiin jd hri "secret" gue. ternyata...statment MATI 1 TUMBUH 1000 itu ga berlaku buat gue. ini ceritanya... hri ini gue baru aje kehilangan 1 orang yg ngsih gue inspirasi bnyak dlm hdup gue.ya...walo cuma skdar lwt dunia maya aja, tp pengaru dia buat gue gede bgt.gue banyak belajar dari semua yg dia share ke gue.apapun itu, gue nyari pelajaran apa yg bisa di dapet.ini adalah hari dimana gue bakal berpisah buat "sang inspirator" gue yg sangat gue acungin jempol deh... kakak gue yg satu ini bner2 TOP dah!.english'y bro..., keren.ada banyk hal yg bikin gue inget k dia.buat lebih jelas'y, gur bkal bahas 1/1: 1. 21 guns.itu lgu yg di kasih tau dia k gue.kebeneran bgt, gue suka GREENDAY.gue sdih, nangis klo dengerin lagu itu.dan sekarang gue lg ngelakuin hal itu.hati gue ga kuat buat mnahan kesedihan.gue jdi cengeng banget si!!!! 2.dia suka ngatain gue "freak, weird, good girl,..." gue lupa yg laen'y apa.itu semua artinya ga ada yg bner tau... ANEH.ya...itu doa dia buat gue, hmmm 3. dia ada d Jkt, tempat dimana dulu gue besar dan nemuin sahabat2 yg ga bakal gue lupain seumur hidup gue. 4. english'y sumpah deh...TOP cer. kalo bisa, gue pengen privat k dia aje kaki ya, sp tau bisa GRATIS, hahaha(baca: tawa kesedihan, hiks) 5. kata2 yg ga gue lupa dari dia "dapet cinta dari orang yg menjaga kemurnian cinta". gue seneng tp juga sedih baca itu, disaat gue dapet kebahagiaan, gue juga dikasih kesedihan yg gue belom bisa ikhlas buat itu semua. sekarang dia udah pergi and back again ke dunia'y lagi.sebener'y gue si bingung sm dia.dari semua yg gue tau dr dia, kira2 dunia'y dia apa ya???cz gue bingung sm jalan pikiran'y dia, jan2 dia balik ke dunia "weird", kata yg suka dia lontarkan ke gue, hahaha (sry boz, ini cuma ungkapan gue kq, jangan di ambil hati, tp usus aje, biar loe eneg'y lama n panjang, hahaha.JUST KIDDING bro, hehehe...). gue sekarang latihan buat ngikhlasin dia pergi.gue pengen crita dkit tentang si "dummy", tp itu ga bakal gue lakuin. NEVER!!! AVRIEL "I WILL BE" lagu hadiah gue buat dia n si cantik "dummy".gue slalu doain kalian, semoga ga ada lagi insiden kaya kemaren, yg udah bikin loe ancur lebur, remuk, berkeping keping, patah, tenggelam, "MATI" ky gitu.gue ga mau itu terjadi di kehidupan loe. jari2 gue udah cape n ga kuat lagi buat nulis, apalagi hati gue. eh boz, kalo loe baca ini, maapin semua yg udah gue lakuin ke loe.apa aja deh, SEMUANYA. GUE TAU EMANG GA SEHARUSNYA INI TERJADI. gue ngrasa ini semua salah gue. gue emang GOBLOG!!!.MAAPIN YA..., MAA............................PP BANGE..................................TTTTT!!!!!!! ini persembahan terakhir dari gue: DAVID ARCULETA: I hung up the phone tonight Something happened for the first time deep inside It was a rush, what a rush 'Cause the possibility That you would ever feel the same way about me It's just too much, just too much Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Has it ever crossed your mind When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends? Is there more, is there more? See it's a chance we've gotta take 'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last Last forever, forever Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

dari pulang skul, gue udah penge...n banget bikin ni blog, n punya target buat nyeleseinnya sekarang. Dan, ternyata, dewi fortuna nggiring gue ki warnet ini yang, ya..h, tarifnye lumayan bo..., (sry net, tng aje, kalo loe kgen gue, calling aja lewat mimpi, ntar gue bakal nyambangin loe, hohoho). Sblumnya ni warnet penuh dan gue putusin buat pulang aja.sblum pulang, gue inget kebutuhan gue yang "penting" buat masa depan gue, ssst ini masalah cewe', buat yang baca ini, kalo loe cowo, lanjutin aja bacanya, ga usah "kemana mana", haha.sry, rada ng-ekspos, sensor ah... Next, udah gue beli tu "barang", gue nyambangin temen gue yang udah nunggu dengan setianya di pinggir jalan.tapi, ternyata lagi..., tmend gue bilang "eh, dah ada yang keluar tuh dri warnet, cb msuk yuk.." akhirnya guep m tmend gue pun msuk dan mule nyari bilik yang kosong. dapet deh.., gue ada di bilik no.14.yah no.yg lmyn gue suka n bkin hoki.(baca: thnks for all.."). asik hampir 2jam gue stay dsni, ga bozen2 jg ternyata, walo nguras duit saku gue..., huft... tp gpp lah, buat blog gue, "apa siy yg ga buat loe, honey..." dan gue ga sadar kalo, jam ud nunjuk ke arah mata angin barat daya, hmmm sore juga. waktunya gue go out dri "penguras duit" ini... i'll be back again, guys.

yuha... pukul 02.25pm td, gue baru aje nyelesein misi gue yg sempet ketunda karna masalah SDM gue yang lg amburadul, acak adut, ancur lebur, berkeping-keping, ahaaa... hari ini gue sene....ng bua....nget dah!, buahhh!!!, hahaha...ga pada "kena" khan... dengan kesabaran, ketekunan, keterbatasan, keikhlasan, dan carut marut kehidupan yang ada(baca: LEBAY), gue sucess bikin blog yg gue impi2kan, huft..., ini dalam rangka nyalurin hobi gue nulis yang susa...h gue aplikasikan. gue kaya nemuin lagi kehidupan gue, hahaha. bersama dengan headset yang gue pake , smbil dengerin lagunya LINKIN PARK "in the end", gue nyatain bahwa mule detik ini, gue akhiri masa "vacum" gue pas sm backsoundnya dan mulein petualangan gue... Let's begin... what a beautiful world... ;)