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hay..., my blog, i come bakc ni...kemaren gue baru aje ninggalin loe, skrg gue blik lgi ni.gue skrg ada di warnet dket rumah gue, 5mnit sampe, tp tdi gue pke kcptn 90km/hour.hahaha, itu slah 1 cara buat gue tenang kalo gue lgi emosi, n gue ga tkut jatoh cz udah bysa jatoh si, hahaha. pgi tdi gue bru aje kena "sentakan" yg bner2 bkin gue rada gmn...gt.ini mslh orang yg udah gue anggap ky kakak gue sndri.bareng sm lgu'y LP "new divided", gue mo membeberkan kjdian yg baru aje gue alamin.itu bs bkin adrenalin gue terpacu jauh lbih kuat!!! hri ini bakalan gue resmiin jd hri "secret" gue. ternyata...statment MATI 1 TUMBUH 1000 itu ga berlaku buat gue. ini ceritanya... hri ini gue baru aje kehilangan 1 orang yg ngsih gue inspirasi bnyak dlm hdup gue.ya...walo cuma skdar lwt dunia maya aja, tp pengaru dia buat gue gede bgt.gue banyak belajar dari semua yg dia share ke gue.apapun itu, gue nyari pelajaran apa yg bisa di dapet.ini adalah hari dimana gue bakal berpisah buat "sang inspirator" gue yg sangat gue acungin jempol deh... kakak gue yg satu ini bner2 TOP dah!.english'y bro..., keren.ada banyk hal yg bikin gue inget k dia.buat lebih jelas'y, gur bkal bahas 1/1: 1. 21 guns.itu lgu yg di kasih tau dia k gue.kebeneran bgt, gue suka GREENDAY.gue sdih, nangis klo dengerin lagu itu.dan sekarang gue lg ngelakuin hal itu.hati gue ga kuat buat mnahan kesedihan.gue jdi cengeng banget si!!!! 2.dia suka ngatain gue "freak, weird, good girl,..." gue lupa yg laen'y apa.itu semua artinya ga ada yg bner tau... ANEH.ya...itu doa dia buat gue, hmmm 3. dia ada d Jkt, tempat dimana dulu gue besar dan nemuin sahabat2 yg ga bakal gue lupain seumur hidup gue. 4. english'y sumpah deh...TOP cer. kalo bisa, gue pengen privat k dia aje kaki ya, sp tau bisa GRATIS, hahaha(baca: tawa kesedihan, hiks) 5. kata2 yg ga gue lupa dari dia "dapet cinta dari orang yg menjaga kemurnian cinta". gue seneng tp juga sedih baca itu, disaat gue dapet kebahagiaan, gue juga dikasih kesedihan yg gue belom bisa ikhlas buat itu semua. sekarang dia udah pergi and back again ke dunia'y lagi.sebener'y gue si bingung sm dia.dari semua yg gue tau dr dia, kira2 dunia'y dia apa ya???cz gue bingung sm jalan pikiran'y dia, jan2 dia balik ke dunia "weird", kata yg suka dia lontarkan ke gue, hahaha (sry boz, ini cuma ungkapan gue kq, jangan di ambil hati, tp usus aje, biar loe eneg'y lama n panjang, hahaha.JUST KIDDING bro, hehehe...). gue sekarang latihan buat ngikhlasin dia pergi.gue pengen crita dkit tentang si "dummy", tp itu ga bakal gue lakuin. NEVER!!! AVRIEL "I WILL BE" lagu hadiah gue buat dia n si cantik "dummy".gue slalu doain kalian, semoga ga ada lagi insiden kaya kemaren, yg udah bikin loe ancur lebur, remuk, berkeping keping, patah, tenggelam, "MATI" ky gitu.gue ga mau itu terjadi di kehidupan loe. jari2 gue udah cape n ga kuat lagi buat nulis, apalagi hati gue. eh boz, kalo loe baca ini, maapin semua yg udah gue lakuin ke loe.apa aja deh, SEMUANYA. GUE TAU EMANG GA SEHARUSNYA INI TERJADI. gue ngrasa ini semua salah gue. gue emang GOBLOG!!!.MAAPIN YA..., MAA............................PP BANGE..................................TTTTT!!!!!!! ini persembahan terakhir dari gue: DAVID ARCULETA: I hung up the phone tonight Something happened for the first time deep inside It was a rush, what a rush 'Cause the possibility That you would ever feel the same way about me It's just too much, just too much Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Has it ever crossed your mind When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends? Is there more, is there more? See it's a chance we've gotta take 'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last Last forever, forever Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized And I've just got to know Do you ever think when you're all alone All that we can be, where this thing can go? Am I crazy or falling in love? Is it real or just another crush? Do you catch a breath when I look at you? Are you holding back like the way I do? 'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy